been the usual non-motivated lately, so im finally getting around to write this up:
so... this is the story of my first and only love lost now to memory, and since im writing it, history. Her name was (Threesa), and we met in a chat room. we were just hanging out talking to anyone and everyone in there, eventually it got late and quieted down. she started expressing her grief over her failed relationship, and i felt for her and comforted her-just being there for her and empathizing, as i never been through that sort of thing before. she felt better and eventually went to bed. we started talking more and more, and we hit it off grandly. we even got talking on the phone for a while, just bullshitting, really, and getting to know each other. at the time i wasnt looking for anything but a good time, a friend and, when she wanted, some....more intimate "talks". there was some minor dramas which i helped fix concerning some others in the chat and her, making me realize i might have some sort of talent in diplomacy-even though ive been a quiet, shy person throughout my life.
so then came the time when i was trying to plan that trip to see Onelle if she was interested. of course i couldnt get an answer as she was moving at the time, and during that time i was out of contact with Onelle, things got very heated with Threesa-we were talking everyday, and i worried when i missed a message or a call, or when she was busy that day and didnt mention it the previous day-not that she made a lot of plans, but still, it irrationally drove me nuts, not wanting to be away from the computer for long. i realized it was stupid to feel that way, so i squashed the feeling, but couldnt fully shake it. When Onelle said no, i was crushed as i needed to get out and do something crazy like that, and i wanted to meet someone i was interested in, and starting up something ive been missing my entire life-a relationship, or at least a date(love). since things were going really well with Threesa, i decided that Onelle missed her chance with me and i would focus on Threesa. So i cut off any other things i might or might not have been doing with others in chat, even though Threesa never said that i should, i just decided to simplify things and just focus on her.
It was the greatest month of my life. I was happy, and not just content, happy. i had found someone to tell deep intimate secrets to, and feel comfortable doing so, i told her stuff and shared my feelings, it was practically spiritual, and changed me in ways i couldnt believe. I was...a different person, calm, cool, and sexy-thats right, sexy, me. one night, it became clear that she had developed feelings for me, but said that she still was getting over her ex, and couldnt give me her heart, as she was afraid i would crush it. this led me to examine how i felt and after a night of searching, i found that i did indeed love her. i decided that i wouldnt say it til i saw her in real life, and made plans for the trip ive been wanting to see her instead. i told her the idea, and she was wary of it, but she didnt say no-in fact, she was receptive, but didnt want it to be for a while, so i was happy enough-i wanted to set a date and start planning, but i had to be patient.
a couple weeks went by and she was planning to go to an anime convention, and since ive never been to a convention before, i thought it would be cool to go to it-but i was just musing at the time-she thought this a great idea, so then the date was set-i was to go see her and hang out at the anime con, and do a few other things as i would be there for a week-i figured a couple days wouldnt be enough. i ordered the bus tickets as i cant really fly anymore, and checked out some of the other attractions the city had-i wanted to go to the gardens, and the zoo at least, and play some munchkin. all was set in place and i was excited as....well, a virgin who was going to get laid by 2 women at the same time.
ill stop here i guess, its gotten pretty long and seems logical to end on the high note.
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