sooo...

i dont think ill be posting the day to day business of the fiasco. i originally wanted to write it down for posterity, but now i just want to put it behind me and forget it-remembering what lessons i have learned. needless to say, i made a few mistakes and was really tired and smelly from my bus, self pressured to make a good impression on the people in her life, and something else she hasnt told me(or she doesnt know herself)... which led to her falling out of love with me. of course this kinda drove me mad once i got home and ended up trying to keep something of what we had-and ended up making her feel uncomfortable. so now i sit in a self-imposed exile from the chat, trying to straighten my head out enough to maybe converse with her again and head back to that chat room.

if i get any response to write up the whole trip i will, i feel i still need to write it down, but im not really motivated to do so.

so now besides all that, ill be using this blog to write the random stuff that comes to my mind, like everyone else does-i just had to write all this down because of the crazy stuff and changes ive gone through in the last 6 months.

or maybe ill use it to expand my thoughts on my fantasy world, information which can be found on my website. comments and questions are welcome here-im a weird guy and dont take anything personally even though sometimes i respond that way.