internet tease

no, this isnt about anyone, im sorry to get your hopes up.

this is about the free reviewing of matches on dating sites. we join these sites to find someone special, and its free to join, and they let you see all of the people who would be great for you, and you want to contact them....BUT to communicate with those great people you have to pay, like the sites a goddamn pimp, and not sharing any of the money with their hos....not that they are hos, im just using a colorful metaphor here. just fucking sucks for people who join the site because theyre free and have the whole evil sales technique pushed on us. but there is one site ive found that is good and was recommended to me by a friend and i pass that recommendation onto you! (limited time only, void where prohibited) www.plentyoffish.com its where i found Four, and i hope you find someone special there too.

so, your prolly wondering how thats going right? its going well, ive gotten a lil bit enamored again with her, shes still out of town visiting her family and having a dismal time. her plans got derailed by them, and shes fed up with them for now. she has psycho-analyzed me and her, and doesnt believe wed be a good fit for a relationship, but great friends. when she said this to me-when she was in town-a bit of me wanted to cry, but she wasnt saying "eww, get away from me", she was saying..., well i dunno, but i know she likes me.

my delusional, hopeful mind has created some ideas, but i cant put them down, because they might be too stalker-ish, and scares me that part of my mind creates something like that. and before you get scared of me too, they have to do with her thoughts and feelings that she may hide from me and or herself...not anything like...criminal. i really do believe that she is honest with me, and is not trying to manipulate anything, or foolishly protect her or me. optimism is just hard to put down sometimes. unfortunately, i havent been completely doing the same, and i am ashamed of it, and i hope she does read this...eventually. im trying to find the best times to breach some subjects, and not just blurt things out, though i have a couple times and she was awesome for not running to the hills(latch for my delusional hopes). all i know is for now, i need to build on what we have and see what develops, if anything, and only something good can come from this, at least i have a new friend that has some incredible insight into me, as she is the same way.